So I am leaving tomorrow for New York. Weird because even I started to think it was all talk. But yes, tomorrow is the big day, and I'm trying not to throw up at the idea of it because this is a good thing. I'm supposed to do something impetuous that scares me. I'm also supposed to feel like I can't eat and can't sleep when I start to really think about it. That's a good sign!
And yes I am telling myself these things to feel better. But I got a big, reassuring sign today that made me feel a teeny bit more comfortable today.
Today, while I was finishing up packing, I had "Arthur" on in the background, and the episode that came on was about Muffy, the rich, materialistic third grader, and how she goes to Crown City, a metropolitan kind of place akin to Seattle and New York. She has all of these preconceived notions about the place, especially since she's used to being rich and catered to. Plus the place has a song! A few lines include: "Crown City you're dynamite! You're peaches and cream. Try your luck there, kid. Crown City!"
And Muffy has these ideals of what her experience in the city will be like. she even imagines a "That Girl" or Mary Tyler Moore montage of her going around the city. Yet, slowly, that's all stripped away. She's disappointed and mad, but she inevitably accepts her trip. She realizes how amazing the city is and embraces more of the culture and the pace.
So I did learn something from that episode. One, not to get my hopes up, and two, I can make the best of it.
I mean. A fictional third grade cartoon girl did. I figure I can too.