It was when I was sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor, looking down at the ground, crumpling my hair around my head, that I realized that I could have a problem.
My mom was at the stove asking me quite nicely what was wrong (and getting angrier and angrier the more I lacked a proper response*). Pam was feeding Evie since she, Evie, has a cone on her head and has trouble getting to her bowl, and she, Pam, was telling me that it wasn't a big deal.
Ironically, all of this neuroticism came from an interview with a psychiatrist.
Yes, one of the psychiatrists called me back! And while I was over the moon, I was also very unprepared when he called. I was actually chillin' on facebook, writing a long letter to my friend Jill. It really could've been worst I guess. So when the doctor called, I had no questions for him to answer! That sucked.
I just pulled up the questions I asked the psychology undergrad and grad students, who were the only people I could find to speak to me, and started there. But they were really dumb questions, and I felt like I was disappointing him with my Psych 101 basic need to knows. I could hear how he was trying to steer me in the proper direction.
Then I realized that he was a psychiatrist, so I started to panic more. Then I just wanted the interview to end, so I wrapped it up rather abruptly.
Guess how long that was? It took 15 minutes. Less than that at least, but I'm padding to make myself feel better. A 15 minute interview is not something you should have when you have an assignment or any sort of in depth story. Gosh.
Why am I getting worked up just retelling this?
Anywho, this is why I was on the kitchen floor in a puddle of embarrassment, singing my name to the Ponyo song**. At one point, Pamela turned to me, and said in a way that she meant to be helpful, "Maybe you should stick to creative writing rather than journalism."
Maybe she's right.
*Improper response like...
Mom: What's wrong?
Me: Eh...Urgh! Georgette Georgette!
**As seen in the above footnote, "Georgette Georgette" is me inserting my name into the Ponyo song.
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